I spent every day of my pregnancy being scared

pregnant
I had 2 daughters after being told I would never conceive naturally
October 5, 2018
At 25 I was told I’d probably never had children
October 9, 2018

I am 28 years old and have battled with my health since I was a teenager. Having had severe stomach cramps and other difficulties, I saw several different doctors, all of whom diagnosed something different.

Firstly I was told I had polycystic ovaries but this wasn't monitored nor were they prepared to do anything about the cysts, even after I was admitted to hospital with a ruptured cyst. Other diagnoses included IBS, being overweight and fibromyalgia.

When I reached my 20s I already knew how much I wanted to be a mum and had been unable to conceive for such a long time but still doctors were not prepared to look into why.

When I met my husband in 2014 we managed to conceive however lost our first child very early on and we were devastated. Finally, doctors started to listen to me about my constant pain and I was referred for an operation, however I was told they didn't think they would find anything.

Lo and behold I was told when I woke up that I had endometriosis and the surgeon had used laser treatment. He told me it was completely cured and he said I did not have polycystic ovaries. I was confused by this as I had seen scans proving I had, but I let it go as I thought maybe I was through the tunnel, at the light at the other end. However, I still had problems following my operation and saw yet another consultant who told me conflicting information, that there was no way all the endometriosis had been treated and the only way going forward to keep it at bay was to go on the mini pill which would stop my periods.

I refused this method as I was so desperate to be a mum. Finally, in 2015 I fell pregnant with my rainbow baby. The pregnancy was touch and go, I spent every day scared rather than excited that I would lose yet another child but he arrived and is now 3 years old. Although my health still isn't great and my pain is now being put down to psoriatic arthritis, I wouldn't change everything that has happened as I now have 2 beautiful boys who are my world.

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